Tuesday, November 26, 2024

Quote for Today...

 “I believe with all my heart the secret is in our attitude.
Life’s circumstances don’t improve by being anxious or angry or upset.
But God calls us to rise above our circumstances, and that starts first in our attitudes.” 
Rejoice, Karen Kingsbury pp 241

This is a hard season and joy is hard fought. Little things can completely derail me for days. 

Today is gloomy and dark, but I feel a spark deep in my heart. I'm trying to fan into a flame.  Of joy, or contentment, of peace. Knowing I can rest in God's promises. That He sees my heart and hears my prayers.  That He will answer. 💗


I am praying for you today, whatever you are facing, whatever you are feeling that His peace and joy would seep into your soul this holiday season. Until next time sweet friends. 

Friday, November 15, 2024

Ladies Retreat - Fully Known

This entry has been in progress for weeks, every now and then I open it look it over and think- I really should finish this... and then don't.  I'm not sure why I am having such a hard time completing this entry- but let's give it another shot today.

The last weekend in September was Ladies Retreat for our church district. It is one of my favorite times every year. I haven't made it to every one but it is always a blessing when I do. 

I wore my new church shirt. Perfection.
Next I'll be needing the cap and hoodie.

My Friday morning didn't go how I imagined but I still managed to get myself packed and ready to go before Mom and Becca came to pick me up. We then trekked to Syracuse to pick up another old friend for the weekend.  Our trip down to Chambers was smooth sailing. Last year my parents purchased a camper at Chambers and we were all staying with Mom there.

I wish I took pictures of the weekend. I took virtually zero.

I cried through the worship portion of the first night, my heart was so anxious and sad. I am thankful I was standing next to my mom who just wrapped her arms around me and kept on singing. I am so thankful for my mom, for her on going presence in my life, her story and her testimony, her love, compassion and encouragement.  I am thankful we share a faith and church. 

The last couple years my relationship with Alive Wesleyan has been up and down and a little rocky.  I am happy to say its starting to feel like home again.

Our church ladies on Saturday- next year I hope we have oodles more with us.  Next year, I'll be staying in camp housing so my mom can invite others to enjoy her accommodations.  So if you'd like to go to retreat and room with me...let me know 😉 Mark your calendar and block it off- Sept 26-28, 2025.  I can even drive us if need!


Our speaker this year was Suzanne Eller. She was phenomenal. She was real and funny and encouraging. The theme was Fully Known. The team did a great job incorporating the theme throughout the weekend. There were even Tshirts! I love me a "free", super soft, comfy tshirt. 

Theme scripture for the weekend was from Psalm 139

Some of my take aways from this weekend-
  • God is always aware of me, my thoughts, my feeling, my actions, my motives
  • He is near , a hedge around me, he guards me as a treasure (Psalm 139:5)
  • Our calling is not what we do but what we are becoming
  • Our thoughts are powerful- we get to choose what we believe
  • Fix your thoughts on what is TRUE (Philippians 4:8-9)


  • We are invited to detach from our current sphere of influence and attach to JESUS 💖
  • We become identified with Jesus when we step from what we feel to what we KNOW.
  • Biblical JOY- is consciously walking into God's Love and care... right where you are.
All the ladies on Saturday night.
Stolen from the PennYork Womens Ministy FB page

At the main session Saturday night we were invited to write down something we needed to lay down and do so, then pick up a crown instead. I'd be lying if I said this was a one and done thing. I have had to remind myself multiple times in the past weeks that I laid those things at Jesus feet.  I do not need to pick up those burdens again. Not that I don't care any longer, not that I am not praying any longer. But to not let it consume me, to wallow and mull it over and over with an anxious heart. God has a plan, he sees far more than me. He is working. I have to believe it and trust. 

I made a playlist of the worship songs we sang- it is HERE.

Read about past retreats here:

2023

2022

2020

2019

2018

2013

2011

There are two or three of my first retreats that are missing. They were posted on my old blog which one day just disappeared. Aimee and I had an epic adventure getting to retreat our first year- I wish I still had that entry. We only had the aid of printed out directions from google or mapquest or whatever and got lost, as we tend to do. We hit a deer and then later we almost hit a truck and trailer on the side of the road.  It was after dark when we made it to the campground and dropped our stuff in our cabin and headed to main session- no idea who we were rooming with. (We didn't even realize it was our own church ladies until after session- why it didn't occur to us we would be with our own church- I don't know! We were first timers). 😆


~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ 

You have searched me, Lord,

    and you know me.

 You know when I sit and when I rise;

    you perceive my thoughts from afar.

 You discern my going out and my lying down;

    you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

    you, Lord, know it completely.

You hem me in behind and before,

    and you lay your hand upon me.

 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

    too lofty for me to attain.

Psalm 139-1-6 niv

Thursday, November 14, 2024

Today I was reading a book, and I found myself having some bad thoughts. Triggering thoughts for me. Thoughts that have no business in my head.  So I closed it.  Picked up something else. I didn't want to wallow in the hurt and what-ifs and find myself spiraling out of control...so easy to do.

I opened Remember by Karen Kingsbury on my kindle. Opting for a story told from a Christian world view- hoping it would breathe life instead of hurt.  Tuesday night I started watching The Baxter's on Prime. I'm not a big TV watcher these days. But I was in a mood, alone and tired.  I settled down on the couch with my dinner, looking for something to watch, planning to pick up my crochet after I ate. Anyway, on a whim I clicked on The Baxter's. (Based on this book series). I read the first one a while back and watching the first several episodes found me downloading the next book from the library onto my kindle, despite having too- many books already in progress.

All that to say 5 pages in this book has already refreshed my spirit and sparked something in me.  I read this quote on page 5.

Kari could easily find a reason to smile, to believe the best about life and love. And God, of course.  Always God.

This quote immediately resonated with me- not because I am like Kari- but oh I want to be! Lately my husband has picked on me for my grumpy morning face. A few weeks back he also called me a Pessimist- something I never in my life considered myself to be- I always thought of myself more of a glass half full type o' girl. Was that not true?  

Stepping back I see myself becoming someone I do not want to be. I feel bitterness fighting to take hold. The regrets and sadness and worry, threatening to take me under. But I am not going to let them. Yes, life is hard. Yes, we all have hurts and regrets. But I do not want those things to define who I am. As I read the above quote a bible verse immediately came to mind.

She is clothed with strength and dignity,
    and she laughs without fear of the future.  Proverbs 31:25 NLT

This is my new goal. This is the person I want to strive to be, not hurt, not angry, not bitter. I want to be strong, whole, joyful and light and encouragement to those around me. 

I have H💗PE.  There is always H💗PE.

Tuesday, November 5, 2024

October Reading...a very very good reading month!

89 Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah    10/4    (print/borrowed)★★★★

I borrowed this book off my sister's bookshelf when I was staying at her house to take care of the nephews. I read this book because Kristin Hannah and I loved the Netflix series, I'm on the third watch through.  The book follows Tully and Kate- who become best friends in middle/high school and through their college and growing up years. It definitely has all the same vibes as the series although some details are changed.

Best friends forever. They'd believed it would last, that vow, that someday they'd be old women, sitting in their rocking chairs on a creaking deck, talking about the times of their lives, and laughing...

Where there is life, there is hope, and where there is love, there is

forgiveness.

One thing I can tell you for sure is this: we only regret what we don’t do in life.

90 Iron Flame by Rebecca Yarrows    10/10    (kindle/library)★★★★

Challenges Met: 52 Bookclub 51. Related To The Word "Wild" (because what could be more wild than dragons!)

It took a little while to get into, I think mainly because so much time passed since I read Fourth Wing and it took me awhile to remember what was happening. But once I did I flew through it- especially once I got my new Kindle Paperwhite!  It's hard to talk about a sequel without giving spoilers but I enjoyed it just as much as the first book- knocking off a star for the same reasons (language and very open door romance).  The next one doesn't come out until January! Hopefully I'll still remember what's happening by then.

Violence, remember it's only the body that's fragile. You are unbreakable.

Me? Argue with you about books? I only pick fights I can win.

91 Secondary Target by Angela Carlisle    10/11    (print/own)★★★★



I won this book in a giveaway from the publisher, I think, earlier this year.  It's been sitting on my night stand ever since. So I picked it for my church book club to read this month. It was an anxiety inducing thriller for me.  I had to keep reading to find out what happens! Phew.  I did not see the ending coming at all. 




92 The Spellshop by Sarah Beth Durst    10/15    (audio/library)★★★★

Challenges Met: 52 Bookclub 26. Hybrid Genre

A random fun, sweet fantasy romance. I'm not even sure how I heard about it but I thoroughly enjoyed it. During a rebellion in the capital city The Great Library is set on fire, librarian Keila flees with a boat full of books and her trusty assistant Caz, a sentient spider plant.  She winds up heading to an outlying island she was born on, hoping to lay low.  But of course she becomes entangled with her neighbor and enmeshed in the community. A story of found family and second chances, magic and mystical creatures of every kind.

It wasn’t that she didn’t like people. It was only that she liked books more.

Books should be shared with everyone who wants to open their minds and hearts to them.

She didn’t really know anything about running a shop or magic or jam… But I do know books - and that meant there was nothing she couldn’t know, eventually. That was magic in and of itself.

You know, plants aren't nearly as emotionally exhausting as humans. You should try to be more plant.

93 The Pumpkin Spice Cafe by Laurie Gilmore    10/17    (kindle/own)

Challenges Met: 52 Bookclub 42. Author Debut In Second Half Of 2024

Light, fun slightly spicy fall romance read. Jeanie moves to town to take over her aunt's coffee shop. Logan is a local farmer. It seems someone is trying to deter Jeanie from staying in town.  Logan helps her figure out who is trying to sabotage her coffee shop, and its a romance so you know... 💖

It was hibernating season. Pajamas were perfectly appropriate.



94 This Summer Will Be Different by Carley Fortune    10/23    (kindle/library)★★★★

Challenges Met: 52 Bookclub 29. Published In A Year Of The Dragon

My first time reading a book by this author, it was on the MMD SRG and then also Bri McKoy picked it for her October cook's club book club pick. I really knew nothing going in. It ended up being a delight, set in part on Prince Edward Island with some Anne of Green Gables tie-ins which put it over the top for me.  This is a romance and has a few pretty open door scenes FYI.

“I’m not usually a beer drinker, Felix.” “It’s a blueberry ale, made here on the island. Try it.” I took a sip. It was ice cold and slightly tart.

Felix hasn’t seen us yet. He’s absorbed in his book. There’s almost always a paperback tucked into the back of his jeans. He goes through them quickly.

It's how I learned that the families we make are as significant as the ones we're born into. It's how I learned that the greatest loves are not always romances.

95 How to Read a Book by Monica Wood    10/24    (kindle/library)★★★★★

Challenges Met: A-Z  "H"

From MMD SRG- loved this! A story of forgiveness, second chances, found family, love and books. Our main characters are Harriet, a retired school teacher now leading a prison book club, Violet who is being released from prison after killing a kindergarten teacher in a drunk driving accident, and Frank, the husband of the kindergarten teacher.

I am a reader. I am intelligent. I have something worthy to contribute.

As so often happened in Book Club, Harriet felt a stirring of belonging, her foibles fitted to a more forgiving spectrum of human striving.

All at once, Harriet began to laugh. “Oh my God, Frank, is this a caper?” Her face took on a childlike glow. “Have we just pulled off a caper?”

96 The Thursday Murder Club by Richard Osman    10/25    (print/library)★★★


Book club pick for LBC. It was ok, slow going and seemed like it took forever to read! There's a lot of characters to keep track of and I hear it’s better once you get to know the characters.  Wondering if the 2nd book would have better flow? I probably would not have finished it if it wasn't a book club pick and turns out I am the only one who did :P

We all have a sob story, but we don't all go around killing people.

I know the difference between alone and lonely, and Bernard is lonely.  There is a cure for that.

97 The Lost Story by Meg Shaffer    10/29    (kindle/library)★★★★

I don't know how I found this book, maybe just came across it on Goodreads. It was an unexpected delight. Inspired by The Chronicles of Narnia, I know am wanting to read the whole Narnia series. Who hasn't at times wished to slip through a doorway to another world. At the beginning of this book our two main characters, 15 year old best friends are found after being missing for 6 months.  Where were they for those 6 months and what happened to them... 15 years later they are drawn back together to help find a missing girl who had disappeared in those same woods, many years before. *It does involve a LGBTQ+ romance.

“Some day you will be old enough to start reading fairy tales again.
—C. S. Lewis”

 

Total: 9   2024: 97 

Kindle/Ebook:  5     Print: 3     Audio: 1

Library: 6     Owned: 3     Kindle Unlimited: 0    Borrowed: 1

Favorite: I'm hard pressed to pick a favorite this month, I enjoyed so many of them so much!  Although I guess I did give How to Read a Book 5🌟

50 States: no new states but already two in progress for November

52 Bookclub: 40/52- I am starting to get nervous about finishing this- 12 to go so I have to read 6 each in the next two months to finish by the end of the year- do able, but sometimes my mood reading gets in the way- any recommendations for a neurodivergent author or a self insert by an author?

A-Z: 19/26


Monday, November 4, 2024

November Sister Coffee Date

Saturday was on November Sister Coffee Date.

We went to Recess Coffee on Tipp Hill in Syracuse. It was a bustling little shop. I loved it. It was nestled in the heart of a neighborhood.





We found a spot in the corner with a dinosaur in the monstera plant and waited for our order to be called.

I love getting seasonal things and we both opted to try the Teddy Graham Latte. Honestly it was a little disappointing- I mean it was good coffee- but I wouldn't have classified it as Teddy Graham, but then when I reached to bottom of my cup there was all the cinnamon and honey- so maybe it had just needed a good stir.

We also both got the classic breakfast sandwich on an everything bagel. Delightful.

We talked about all the things and set some action points for this week, to help us strive for the life we want.

After the coffee shop we popped into the cute boutique next door.


I got the boys some cookies, they were super excited for!

In the afternoon we did a little thrifting with our niece. It was fun spending some quality time with her.  We spent the evening at my house, the mister cooked up some fish tacos for us.  It was a lovely evening, much laughter and enjoyment with family.

Today I am excited to start this study- I didn't get to it this morning as I spent an extra hour in prayer for the election and our country as part of the 24 hour prayer vigil with our church.  So I'll be starting tonight and tomorrow will get back on my regular quiet time schedule.
💙